Congrats on making the games. Must have been great seeing all your hardwork pay off!
The question that we have for you is this. When you are about to tackle a workout that you know is going to hurt so badly – how do you mentally block out the ‘fear’ of doing it. For example – the lactic tester of row 250, 15 swings, 25 burpees, 15 swings, row 250 @100%. What do you do to calm yourself and focus on the job at hand?
CFPT team in Hong Kong
Everyone has encountered this thought you are talking about. The more experienced you get at this sport I think you can begin to anticipate better when things are going to be terrible. It is the curse of doing this for a long time. Because of your experience you can see the end of the tunnel and the light that awaits you. “Then it comes to be that the soothing light At the end of your tunnel It’s just a freight train comin your way” (Metallica).
At some point you begin to realize that being strong, skilled, and having a big engine in this sport doesn’t always equal success. So what separates folks? You have to find something else to latch on to. Some other area you plan to be consistent and stand out. I write about Honesty, Commitment and Persistence. Those words are the foundation for my approach to separating myself from others. Mental attitude is a huge part of this.
Your observation about painful training being a source of mental and physical block is valid. There is lots of fear surrounding this in our sport. Therefore this is a key area of separation in our sport and in our training methods. Who is going to back down from it and who is going to rise to it? Everyone has backed down from this fear at some point. Some athletes less often than others, but I would wager a guess that even the guys out there who have reputations for putting their heads down and enduring the most pain have even backed down. Therefore I see this as a great opportunity. Fear turns to opportunity with a slight shift in perception. I accept that I have backed down in the face of pain and I let that go. Now I look forward to opportunities to test my mental and physical tolerance.
I don’t try to quiet my mind or calm myself. Instead I try to just be aware of what my mind is telling me I can’t do or shouldn’t do. Becoming more aware of the things your mind says over and over again in these painful situations will allow you to identify your self talk patterns. Once you have done that you can reflect on how your physical body responded to that self talk and hopefully start to change your patterns going forward.
Trying to block out the pain is a waste of time in my opinion. It hurts, it hurts everyone, and more times than not you know what it is going to hurt bad. So stop trying to ignore it. Instead try listening to how your respond. Get more focused on the feelings. Anticipate them. Play it over in your head before it happens and be ready for it. My coach has been talking about this for years. “Know Pain” and when it shows its familiar face then you will be ready to respond and overcome.
Hope thats a new way of thinking about it.
Run 10 minutes at Z1
AD 30 minutes at Z1 (210w average)
(get off every 3 minutes on AD complete 2 TGU/arm easy + 15 DU’s) – 35# kb
A. RDL @ 3111; 3 x 3; rest 2 min (light load, feel stretch)
215 x 3 sets
B. Snatch Grip Deadlift @ 4221; 2-3 x 3; rest as needed (semi-tough but more about position)
215, 235, 255
C. HPC + HSC + Jerk – 1 emom – Start at 65% and build – 8 min – level off as needed
210, 216, 221, 227 x 5 sets
D. Strict HSPU AMRAP; x 3 sets; rest 3 min
26, 21, 16
AD 40 seconds @95%
Rest/walk actively 3:20
33, 34, 31, 36, 36, 35
Row 30 sec @90%
(1:30-1:33 pace average)
rest 30 sec
DU’s 30 sec
(55-60 du per set, all unbroken)
rest/walk actively 1 minute
A. FS @ 32X2; 6,5,5,4,4,3 rest 3 min (last 3 sets tough)
185, 205, 225, 245, 265, 285x2reps (knee felt great and lifting today in flats, not weightlifting shoes)
B. emom 20 min –
even 3 TNG squat clean (185#)
odd – 1 MU into 1 dip – 5 reps of complex
*this was a total ass kicker. on the last 4 rounds of the muscle up/dip complex I dropped the reps down to 4. very taxing.
C. 20 KB TGU (Heavy, grinder)
*used a 70lb kb and just went slow and steady.
AD 10 min @ Z1
AD 30 sec @ 80% AER
walk rest 30 sec x 20 straight
*went pretty hot on this 30sec sets and was hitting 480-520watts. consistent the whole time and could have gone for 10 more mins so felt aerobic.
AD 10 min @ Z1
PM with Dan-O
30 man-maker (45#/h) for time
rest as needed
15 oh squat (185#) – unbroken
50 CTB pull up – 10/10/8/7/5/5/5
15 push jerk (185#) – 5/5/5
50 toes to bar – sets of 5 all the way
1 mile AD
*learning a lot about myself in these longer grinders that have large sets and pacing doesn’t work on. need to dig in a little deeper on big sets and not be fearful of what is going to happen on the next movement. too many thoughts about what is going to happen on the next movement and it slowed me down.
A. PC cluster 1.1.1 (75%); 5 sets; rest 15 seconds, rest 2 minutes
235lbs all sets
B. Every 2 min; PP x 2 + SJ x 1; 6 sets – moderate, same across
205lbs all sets
C. emom – 12 min
Min 1 – 3 rope climb (30sec each)
Min 2 – 4 pHSPU kipping
Min 3 – 12 cal row (20-22sec)
A. BS cluster @30X1; 3.3.3; x 4; rest 10 seconds, rest 4 minutes (tough weight)
295, 305, 315, 320 (got a little help on rep 9)
for time – 90%:
20 KB front rack lunge (2 pd both hands) (unbroken)
15 KB snatch left (2 pd) (9/6)
15 front squat (225#) – from the floor (9/6 – so hard on last 2 reps, back just wanted to round)
15 KB snatch right (2pd) (6/9)
20 cal AD (650watts +)
A. Snatch Ladder – starts at 175# – adds 10# every 75 sec
20 double under buy into every rep – NOT a 1RM test, keep it fast
265, stopped there. felt great and only 5# off my best
B. 3 rds for time @ 97%:
10 alternating db snatch (100#)
rest as needed
farmers carry 200m (100#/hand)
20 thrusters (155#)
run 400 meters
20 bar muscle ups
Megan and I took our annual trip to Lake Tahoe last week. The past two years we have tried to squeeze everything into 3 or 4 days. This year we just went for the full 8 days 7 nights. It was epic. I’m so grateful to have a team of coaches and business partners that allow me to take time like this. I felt recharged by the experience and excited about the year to come. It felt the the first real break since the games.
Every day we got up casually, took a hot tub, worked out, made great breakfast, hiked, beached, worked out some more, cooked elaborate dinners, watched TV shows, stayed up late, slept in late, and just had a memorable time. We have some friends come to visit and it helped cap off one of the best weeks in a long time.
The perfect vacation = relaxation, training, good cooking, no plans, beautiful scenery, great company. Check!
Check out some of the scenic workouts.
– 2:00 average pace after 3500m
Open Water Swim to Buoy
20 KBS 53
20 Push Ups
255, 275, 295, 305, 315
(1:45, 1:35, 1:25 – all 3 sets same)
10:44 (absolutely hateful workout)
30 Burpee Buy In
30 KBS 70#
50 KBS 35#
Your blog is a great resource for myself to continue on my journey of fitness. I was looking for some advice though. I have noticed that so many of the videos that you post you are training alone. I find myself doing the same since there are not any “boxes” within reasonable distance and just having graduated college with loans for days makes it even tougher! My question is, how do you keep your head in the game? What does it take to stay on track? Any rituals, self talk or other methods you call on to keep your focus?
Thanks for everything you do on here man. I would really appreciate it if you answered this. Thanks!”MF – Dear Juan,Good observation. Last year training for Regionals I did a lot of training sessions alone. This was an important part of my growth as an athlete. My training changed a lot from the 2012 season to the 2013 season. My coach was asking new things of me and I was having to challenge my body in new ways. Being alone for lots of training hours was an important step. It forced me to look inside myself to navigate the challenges in front of me.These days I tend to seek out training partners or environments that feel energetic and supportive to my training. Less and less you will find me doing the solo thing. It is a new phase of my training and growth. I’m trying to put myself around others, expose myself to different environments and training partners, and surround myself with energy that may take my performance to levels that I otherwise would be scared to go.
But your question is a good one. How do you stay focused and motivated when you are doing the solo training thing? First off, having a structured plan is essential. In my case I had a coach that I answered to. He gives me programs and I have to complete them. I’m task oriented so completing the assigned training plan is always one goal. If you can’t find a coach then create a plan for yourself that is more than just a day to day freestyle. Secondly, I always had the camera on. I was filming my training with the intention of putting it all on the internet for people to see. Those video sessions held me accountable.
The final thought that goes through my mind during these types of sessions is one that has helped me and I’m sure can help you. I try to remember that with the perfect training scenario just about anyone can have success. If you have training partners, nice equipment, the perfect schedule, the right temperature in the gym, you along with everyone else will have success. But it is the folks that train hard, find the strength to push through, when the situation isn’t perfect, when you don’t have the right training environment, that are true champions. I remember reading stories my coach wrote about his early days of training CrossFit. He would wake up at like 3am to go into the gym to turn the heat on so that at 4am when he went to train, by himself, he wouldn’t freeze to death. He did that for years and he was a champion. Just him and a video camera. He posted every day to crossfit.com what his results were, even though by days end they weren’t always the best. Honesty, Commitment, and Persistence, and he found his way to the top of the podium.
Thanks for your question Juan. Train hard and stay focused. It is a long journey.
Been struggling to find things to write about on the blog to you all. It is part of the reason I’ve been inconsistent with my posting. Got something you’d like to hear about from me, please feel free to let me know.
For now I’m just going to continue to share what I’ve been doing and my training experience. I still hope it serves as a resource for some of you out there who are training and looking for examples. I also hope it inspires you to get out and try some new things and challenge your limits. That is the design of the training. To challenge physical, mental, and emotional barriers. If you want to learn more about what that is like for yourself you can always contact me at email@example.com.
AD 1 min @ easy pace
Row 1 min @ easy pace
VC 1 min @ easy pace
Skierg 1min @ easy pace
Jump Rope 1 min easy x 7
A. Clean Grip Dead Lift @ 32X1; 3 sets of 5; rest as needed – only last set somewhat tough
295, 325, 355
*on video a slight round felt best and most nuetral
B. High Hang HPS – 2 emom – moderate weight – 10 min
165 (2 sets), 175 (8 sets)
15,13,11,9,7,5 rep rounds for time:
Strict HSPU on DB handles
L Pull Ups
15:00 – grinding the whole way, lots of core stabilization, l-pullups are all with bent legs, can’t get straight with any force. heal is always above hip
AD 3 min @ Z1
AD 5 sec max effort
rest spin 30 sec x 3
AD 1 min @ Z1
AD 15 sec MAX effort
rest 3 min walking x 6
18, 18, 18, 18, 16, 17cals
AD 5 min @ Z1
25 DU’s AFAP
Row 200 m @ 95% effort
rest walk 90 sec x 8
1:28.5 average – 35.5, 35.2, 35.4, 35.4, 35.2, 35.4, 35.5, 35.5
A. FS – 3 x 3 @ 70% RPE; rest 1 min
B. FS – 3 x 3 @ 80% RPE; rest 2 min
EMOM – 12 min
odd – HSC – 185# x 3
even – HS walk as far as you can in 20 sec
HS walks unbroken about 15m
C. 40 TGU not for time – 1.5 pd
AD 35mins easy
EMOM – 12 min:
FW – 20 sec with heavy DB – odd
Wall Walk x 3 – even
rest few min
10 burpee muscle ups
5 wall walks
5 sets of 50 unb DU’s
5 wall walks
10 burpee muscle ups
rest few min
EMOM – 10 min
AD 8 sec max – odd
RC from ass leg less – even
A. PC – 1.1 emom – 72% – 10 min
B. PC x 1/PJ x 2 – 70% – 10 min
C. PP Cluster from rack – 2.2.2 x 4; rest 4 min – 10 sec b/t reps
205, 210, 216, 221
D. 30 sec max reps – DB push press – 45#/h; rest 30 sec x 4
30, 25, 18, 15
A. BS @ 30X2; 10,10,10; rest 5 min
275, 285, 295(9reps – didn’t want my spotter to have a heart attack)
15 OHS – 135#
15 OHS – 155#
15 OHS – 175#
A. HPC – build to a tough single in 12 min
280 (pretty easy, catching a little tough on knee)
rest as needed
PS – 135#
Bar Muscle Up
rest as needed
20 min timer:
AMRAP DU’s in time remaining
The CrossFit Games marked the end of another volume in the novel that is my life. This past year has truly been one of self discovery. So many things have added meaning, purpose, and challenge to this past year. I’m grateful for all of it, the highs and the lows. In hindsight, one of the true blessings of making it to the CrossFit Games was that I had an opportunity to bring closure to it all.
It would be impossible for me to wrap up the last year of training and competing in just this post. Fortunately I’ve shared most of it with you all on this blog for the past 11 months. I believe my first blog post chronicling my training this year was August 28th of 2012. Megan and I were in Seattle and I did my first programmed workout from James. It just so happened that on that first day I had to row 60mins for max meters. (Lucky to have had that and two other 60min tests under my belt when Dave announced the half marathon row).
Eleven months later I find myself with one Games appearance under my belt. As my dad loves to ask, “what do you have to report?”. I still love fitness. I’m committed to exploring the outer limits of myself mentally, spiritually, and physically, through the sport of fitness . My goals for the past year were met and exceeded. Through this blog I was able to share a big part of my life with so many people. Hopefully it provide a window for you all to look through to see what the life of one competitive CrossFit athlete looks like. It is perhaps the thing I’m most proud of this year. Sharing the ups and the downs, being transparent, and teaching others through my own personal pursuits has added purpose to this year.
Special thanks to the following people for their role in the most recent Games.
James Fitzgerald – A mentor to me and a coach at heart. The first athlete in the sport of fitness, that through his inspiring example, lead me to be his biggest fan, his student, a CCP coach, and later on his athlete. I still vividly remember the day I had to pick my jaw up off the floor when he unexpectedly walked up and introduced himself to me at the 2010 CrossFit Games in whole foods. Thank you for helping me realize some things about myself.
TJ and Allison Belger – Friends, leaders of our community, and partners in this crazy thing we do. Without your support this year I wouldn’t have been able to commit the time and energy needed to realize a dream. Thank you.
TEAM Filly – Anyone who wore a Team Filly shirt this past month. All my amazing supporters. You guys out in Mississippi, screaming at the television up in Novato, seeking out good WiFi up in the mountains, my Mill Valley Family, and I’ll never forget the crew the made the trip down south (Yago, Bridget and Nate, Bridget and Jake, Sarah, Dan, Joe, Hilah and KP, Evan and Jess, Joe, Andy, Jason, and Lisa S, and my superstar teammate and athlete Lisa R and CJ)
TEAM Filly Proper – Mom, Dad, Sara, Tony, Chris, Hannah, Lilah, Elise, and Jason Kaden. I will always remember these last two competitions for many reasons but having my family all together to support me ranks amongst the top.
Meggerz – I never want to do one of these things without you. Nobody could take your place nor would I want anyone to. Thank you for sticking by me through another year of this.
So begins the next chapter in this series yet to be titled. I look forward to getting back to using this outlet to share with you all. Look for me to put in another year of work to see what spits out the other side. The mission is the same. Invest deeply into the process of training and be open to the magic at the end of the year. Along the way try to reach as many people as possible and show them how one person at this level of the fitness choses to do things.
I’ll leave you with perhaps the best bit of coaching advice I received at the CrossFit Games. See caption below.
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airdyne 30 min z1
A. Power clean and jerk; 3 reps on the min for 10 min 60/67% 1rm – up and down per set waveload
B. Squat snatch off high blocks; build to a max
3 rounds for time
25 kbs 2 pood
Run 1 mile
40 strict hspu
80 power snatch 80#
Squat clean gauntlet (2012 games standard)
*had to stop after 285, back felt really bad and I didn’t want to risk hurting it more
5 rounds for time:
4 squat snatch 165#
5 bar muscle ups
40 double unders
*stayed steady and controlled. did singles on all snatches and then unbroken on the rest. forgot time and wasn’t concerned about it.
21 unbroken CTB chin ups
Run 400 m
18 unbroken CTB chin ups
Run 400 m
15 unbroken CTB chin ups
Run 400 m
-7:03 was trying to get under 7 mins. Felt like this was a similar test to Helen and wanted to get a similar time to what I hope my current Helen to be. Happy with the running. Pull ups were not a problem.
row 500m @ 1:45/500 m
jump rope 90 sec @ easy pace
A. Power snatch Cluster; 1.1×10; rest 3 min, 10 sec b/t reps
-195, 200, 205 x8sets. This was the best I had for today. Not a ton of power on my pull these days.
EMOM 12 min:
Odd- 3 power clean 225# TnG
even- 6 weighted dips (moderate load) used 53# (not too bad)
100 kbs for time 2 pood
– 4:27 (40/15/10/10/9/9/7) – Grip smasher. Dug in pretty deep towards the end so happy about that.
30 thrusters 135#
-2:44 unbroken. Ran in 1:33 and took about 10 seconds to pick up the bar. Wasn’t going to put it down. Last 3 reps were interesting.
Bike 15 min z1
bike sprints 1 min uphill grinder pace
easy ride down/recover
15 min z1 flush pace
*scott valley (vasco st.) bottom to just turning corner. tough after 3 rounds. the rest period was always around 2:30. The legs get so juiced half way up the hill and then it is just a fight to move enough air in and out of my body.
Swim out 2 min
Swim back in
rest 3 min on shore
Airydne 10 min z1 (200 W/avg)
Airydne 30 seconds @85% (424-475)
airydne 30 seconds @50% (100-150)
– At home on the deck with megz. beautiful morning in Mill Valley. I love being able to finish up these sessions and walk right into the kitchen to fix breakfast. Dreaming of when I can have a complete home gym.
5 rounds for time:
5 heavy tire flips
5 burpee jump through tires
3:40 – tire wasn’t the biggest thing ever but not easy. was steady the first 4 rounds then pushed it at the end. rest as needed5 rounds for time:
10 stone to shoulder 150#
10 box jumps 24″
14:03 – easily the hardest of the 3 today. stone was a grind. box jumps were step downs the whole way and were just rest from the stone. stone had to be lapped and then rolled up my body on every represt as neededFor time:
60 KB snatch 2 pood (alt per 5)
20 wall walks
6:48 – 5 reps, put bell down, take a breath, 5 reps, put bell down…. repeat. Snatches went at a good clip. But I knew the wall walks were going to be the time suck. They are a great drill to help teach you what you are capable of doing when your shoulders hurt SO BAD!
6 TnG power snatch – add per set unbroken
Airydne 30 seconds
rest 5 min
*last set of snatches almost floored me. so hard! these sets are designed to make you feel pain and I know that all to well. fast forward about 10sec after you step of the airdyne. It is just as Tony Bourdain once described the tazer gun to be. Your body feels like one giant open cavity and the dentist just hit the nerve with the drill. The pain spreads like electricity and it is inescapable for a few split seconds. To think that you willingly get back on that bike is crazy on many levels. Fine Dyning at its best.
Row 500m in 1:38.5
rest 90 sec
(rest 6 min b/t sets 3/4)
1:38.4, 1:38.4, 1:38.4
1:38.3, 1:38.3, 1:37.4
rest 30 seconds
(max 3 min transition)
bike 20 min easy
0 SEC rest
Run 2500m at tempo – upbeat
This has been one of the most exciting weeks of my professional and athletic life. There has been massive support from everyone following last weekends events and I’m still so grateful for all of it. I’d like to take a moment to reflect on the months leading up to Regionals as they were not as glamorous as this last week has been.
The build up to regionals had an entirely different feel to it than this week. Just over a month ago if you had checked in with me you would have found a guy who was on the verge of collapse. Life had gotten out of control. My back hurt to a point of not being able to train, I was overwhelmed by my work, and I found myself unable to hold back the tears on enough occasions to prompt concern. Prepared to quit the season, ready to give up, I just about screamed out for some guidance. Something needed to change but I didn’t know what.
The folks I surround myself with were instrumental in helping keep me on the path towards Regionals and ultimately beyond. They all deserve to be mentioned here. To anyone that stuck with me when I was down and doubtful these past several weeks, I love you and couldn’t have done this without you.
I will however highlight one specific instance of support as it has stayed with me. Sometimes the right conversation happens at the right time. In this case an email exchange with my coach while he was on a plane to some far off place was a timely conversation that helped me hold on. He offerred up some grounding reminders about what I have been doing, who I’ve been doing it for, and why everything at that moment made sense and could still be overcome. I listened to what he had to say, I tried to let it fill me up with confidence, I did my best to change my mindset, but at the end of the exchange all I had to say in response to his positive foresight was “I hope so.” He quickly responded with “Hope doesn’t work… Will Does.” The conversation ended on that exclamation. The words buried themselves deep inside of me.
I’ve had plenty of time since then to think about what that meant. In that moment it was profound. It guided me through the challenging weeks to come. I reminded myself of it throughout the weekend at Regionals. Now it serves as a guide.
Wikipedia say this about Hope and Will.
Hope is the state which promotes the belief in a good outcome related to events and circumstances in one’s life
Will, in philosophy, refers to a property of the mind, and an attribute of acts intentionally performed. The will is in turn important within philosophy because a person’s will is one of the most distinct parts of their mind, along with reason and understanding. It is one of the things which makes a person who they are.
Am I relying on hope or am I living out my personal will? Allowing my life to unfold as a product of my personal will is my mission. My intention is to live a life that is in alignment with that will and allows for it to manifest.
At times we might find ourselves hoping for an outcome. When I reflect on those times in my life it becomes evident to me that in those moments I lose sight of my will. Rather than intentionally moving through life I resign myself to a belief. When will guides your life you have upgraded beyond simple hope. You have combined a positive belief with intent and your mindset. It connects who you are with the outcomes of your life. It fills in the gaps between hope and outcome. It is how you can express your most true self. Live your Will and don’t rely simply on Hope.
Training Saturday June 1st
AM – Row 5k Easy
Noon – Great to be back working in the gym. I have not trained in weeks. Everything has been prepping for Regionals. So getting my hands on a bar for sets and reps felt nice.
A. PS – 3,3,3,3; rest 10 sec b/t reps; 3 min b/t sets
– 195, 200, 205, 210
B. Log Clean x 1/Log Press x 5; rest 2 min x 4 – parallel grip preferred
– 150, 170, 190, 210
Stone to Shoulder tough
PM – 6pm
Open Water Swim practice – 30 min
*Aquatic Park in SF – swam with a wetsuit as the water is still in the mid 50’s out here. Was fun. Probably swam about 1200m today total if I had to guess.
Bike 30 min off road – gonna save this for Sunday as it was getting late.
The 2013 Northern California CrossFit Regional has come to a close. How do you even begin to sum up an experience like that? Written word fails to capture the essence of what it felt like to ride the wave all weekend. I’ll do my very best to paint a picture with words here. But to all the people that were there for the weekend, to the very many people who cheered me on to the very last clean, to each and every person that said some encouraging words to me along the way, I’m forever grateful to you all.
Sunday May 26th started for me at 5:30am. Sleep is hard to come by during the last couple nights of these competitions. I got 6 hours tops of low quality sleep but woke up feeling like I could eat nails. Four points sat between me and the 4th place competitor. The Northern California region has a previous CrossFit Games Champion in it and therefore when he takes a podium spot to the games they invite the 4th place finisher. This is a well known fact amongst the competitors of regionals like Nor Cal, Europe, and the Central East. We know going in and fight for one of the top 4 spots. Many things had to line up for me to make it into the number 4 slot on Sunday but the feeling when I woke up was that at least I had a chance.
One of my biggest assets all weekend was my girlfriend and coach for the 3 days, Megan. She stayed with me every step of the nerve wracking journey. She listened to me when I was down, she was patient when people took my attention, she tolerated all my leaderboarding, and she was always there to remind me to breath, eat, lay down, stay positive, etc. We were the perfect team. “Today is the day, today is the day…” were her words every day for the entire weekend.
The first event on Sunday was my only chance I felt to move up the ladder. The afternoon event was going to be over too fast with all of the athletes at the top finishing so close that I just didn’t believe there were points to be made up in the afternoon. The beauty of Sunday for me was that I knew I could do very well in each of the events from having practiced. I knew there was nothing I would struggle with and therefore believed I had a chance to move up the leaderboard. But despite all that I had to battle doubts and fears all day. Was Pat going to move faster than me? If he did was I going to be able to dig deep enough to catch him? Was my best going to be good enough or was I going to need to try something I’d never done before? And even if the answers to all those questions were positive I still didn’t know how it would all effect the leaderboard. My thoughts were like a ping pong rally inside my head that went on far too long. To be honest, I think the ping pong match only came to an end when I stepped on the final red finish mat at the end of the day.
I remember saying to myself that if I could finish Sunday with only 5 or 6 points then I might just have a shot at qualifying. Six points later, a second and fourth place finish, and I’m headed to the CrossFit Games. I went to Regionals this year with a goal of qualifying for the CrossFit Games, but the weekend experience was so much more than just that. The events of those 3 days can never be repeated. The story that unfolded over those 3 days belongs in a book or movie. However, I will settle for keeping it in my heart and in the hearts and thoughts of all the people that shared it with me. I’m excited to share the continuation of this journey with you all and excited to get back to posting here more regularly with my training updates and thoughts on this journey.
To My Family “TEAM FILLY” – Thank you for stepping into my world so completely this weekend. Thank you for putting everything aside to be present with me as I embarked on one of the biggest moments of my athletic life. I will forever cherish the fact that you were all there to experience that moment with me.
To My TJ’s Teammates – I was so proud to share the regionals stage with you all. Each of you did something gutsy and courageous this weekend that makes me honored to call you my team.
To the TJ’s Family (Partners, friends, community) – Looking out into the crowd and seeing Blue everywhere I turned was a constant reminder that I wasn’t alone. There was nothing to be scared of when I could see your beaming faces.
To my Coach – James Fitzgerald – Your guidance, your way, has engrained in me how all of this fits into the big picture and how each part, the ups and downs, must be experienced fully to achieve success. Gratitude to you for helping me lay a foundation of strength, both physically and mentally, and a framework to navigate the complexities of this journey.
To Patrick Barber – An athlete I’ve looked up to and by watching compete have learned so much from over the years. One of the best competitors I’ve ever had the pleasure to go head to head with. Thank you for never giving up, for pushing me to places I didn’t know I had, and for keeping a smile on your face every time we saw each other.
Today was long. I mean really long. Wake up at 6am, get to fairgrounds at 8am for a “mandatory” briefing with athletes, first workout at 12pm, final workout at 4:50pm, back to the cottage for dinner by 6:30pm. In the famous word of Sal Vulcano of impractical jokers “Yikers!”.
The day is finally coming to a close. The leaderboard says I’m in 5th after day one. I have to climb a spot or two over the next two days. I know what I have to do and will only focus on that from here on out.
Not every event is going to go the way you planned. Some may even go better than planned. You have to believe that. But no matter what when you are done with one you have to move on. There is nothing behind you that matters, only what is in front of you. Immediately in front of you.
What’s in front of me now. A big hunk of chocolate covered in almond butter. And now for some netflix to put me to sleep.
Stay tuned for more guys….